Even Yogis can have a major mental breakdown.

It´s been a while now. I am very sorry about that. But how can you write inspiring posts, when your whole life is a mess? After the month of December, everything went wrong, now August is over, and I finally have some muse to sit down on my desk and reflect on the past months of my life.

I am still not sure if it is the weird year 2020 itself, that brings so much craziness and sadness to so many of us or if I have a worse year for myself. But the last days of my vacation, traveling a bit through the Netherlands, watching a sunset at the beach, seeing the night sky, and visiting Rotterdam pulled me out a bit out of my rabbit hole.

My dog died very unexpectedly in February, and the whole world was closed down the end of March because of a deadly virus. I work from home most of the time and meet rarely people because I moved to a new place. So being alone, super broke because some crazy people just stole from my bank account, at a new place, without my dog. I even lost my lust to cook and ate just vegan junk food all over.

The only constant line is still my Yoga practice. And my love for music and maybe also my sunshine mind, that always holds me above the deepwater somehow. But now. Today. I felt it again. I am longing to go back to my Ayurvedic routine and healthy decisions. And I also think I finally pulled myself out of that rabbit hole. I am on a waiting list for a street dog from Hungary, and I walked around in nature lately a lot. I started to work out again and move my body regularly.

But – the topic of my text – is that I also understand in general how hard it is for so many of you, to start over with your strenght. To find the strenght and motivation to do something healthy for you and your body and get rid off old routines. (Old habits die hard is a thing, huh?) And that even some healthy living person like me, can have weak moments. I really would love to support and inspire so many of you to find a path to change, what you want to change. Especially in these crazy times, I think – Ayuvreda and Yoga are great tools to help us, to find our center again. (If we lost it or if we never had the feeling that we found it.)

But what is also important to me is, that we take slow steps on our way. Because we struggle enough in our day to day life and our brains are full, maybe in 2020 even our pockets are empty. We lost friends, we maybe even lost loved ones because of a disease and maybe because we didn´t agreed on what is right or wrong about the Covid topic. But what is important to me, what is a wish deep down from my heart, is that we all can pull us out of the sadness and chaos and find peace of mind.

I will start with blogging again regularly and share easy and affordable recipes and will upload Yoga videos, meditations – and maybe we can all thrive together and make the last months of 2020 a bit more magical and peaceful for us.

Because you are worth it. I am worth it.

You are a wonder and everything will be alright at the end.

Where I found my center again….


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